5 AM alarm.
I think, "Not already!"
My argument with myself continues:
Get up and go.
But I'm sooooo tiiiirred.
I will be mad at myself if I don't.
Just 5 more minutes.
No. Mind over mattress. C'mon.
But I'm so sore from 2 days ago. I still need to recover.
Finally, by 5:11 AM, after arguing with myself for 11 minutes, I drag my sore, lazy body where my pile of clothes are, and get dressed for the gym.
Why did I buy that membership again?
Okay. So now I'm home and showered, Bella is still sleeping, and I couldn't stop thinking about why it's so hard to get out of bed for something well worth it!
Exercise. For some it's the love of their lives, and others it's their arch nemesis.
So why was it so hard for me to wake up this morning?
Everyone knows how it feels after you exercise. For me, I feel GREAT! The positives of exercise is ridiculously through the roof. Mental, physical, emotional. But at 5 AM apparently I can't remember that.
So is it an issue of remembering? Do I just need to remember how great it is when the alarm clock is singin'??
Or maybe it's a motivation issue. Am I intrinsically or extrinsically motivated? Probably a little bit of both. Does that really matter at 5 AM though?
I don't have the answer. But if you do, then please share.
All I know is that when my blood is flowin', my heart's a pumpin', and I feel my muscles workin', I feel ALIVE. It's quite a nice feeling.
Maybe I thought blogging about it would somehow help me internalize it, hopefully resulting in some deeper commitment to the lifestyle change.
For those who already do exercise, KEEP GOING. You're awesome. And for those who are still trying to make that change a consistent habit, KEEP GOING. You can do it.
Especially you busy mothers out there. You deserve it! We deserve it! Our children deserve it.
Okay. Off my soap box. Have a happy day!